i dunno about other girls, but since middle school, i’ve always admired human being named ‘boys’. it’s not something like affection or love feeling, whatsoever. no, it’s simply because from my point of view, boys are more carefree and easy-going than girls. not only that, most girls fake their acts to attract the boys or because they thought they have image to keep. fft. i’m not saying that boys aren’t like that, but seems like they’re less self-concious than girls. and i often imagined that whenever boys are together, they look silly, innocence, and somehow adorable.
but, when i was in elementary school, i saw boys as childish. when i was in middle school, boys are jerks who like to peep on girls’ skirt ( i remember i had a fight with 2 boys whom i knew peeped on my skirt that time, lol. one, i grabbed his collar before slammed his head on the wall. the other, again i grabbed his collar and pushed him to the floor, then i kicked and stepped on him :p), or those who were too uptight and serious and all they knew were studying, or those who was afraid of me. in high school, boys acted all tough by bullying the freshmen, or fighting other schools. only a few whom i know are good guys. and these few guys are what i would call as ‘boys from my imagination’. bahahahahahha! sounds lame :p! but really, they’re kinda like what i would’ve imagined from what boys would be.
they’re smart, know exactly how to deal girls, yet they’re not womanizers, the only thing that’s in their mind is their dreams, what they wanna be. other may not see what’s so special about them, but they’re not someone whom you could miss in crowd. they have their own style, their own attitude. that’s why i’m saying they’re unique. mekekekek! i always feel envious to those kind of boys, i always want to be like them. but then again, i found girls who act more like ‘boys in my imagination’ than most boys itself! bahahahah! yep, my girl friends on high school and college now are pretty much like that. they are what they are. they have their own attitude… something that i’ve always adored! and this thing is something that i really miss ever since i was considered as an adult and pretty much living in adults’ world, boys with attitude. i miss my high school time when i still could see those kind of boys… while now? pfft… maybe not all grown up boys are losing their attitude, maybe i’m just looking on the wrong place. i guess…
